Mother's Day

So this year for the first time in a while, I've decided I want to give my mom a present for Mother's Day. I decided on a Josh Groban CD, hehehe... hopefully she'll like it. I'm never sure what kind of music she likes, but I know she likes Celine Dion, and Josh Groban did a duet with her once, so maybe he'll also fall under my mother's favor? Anyway, as a friend says, Josh Groban is God's gift to women, so I'm pretty sure my mom will like his voice and his music. :)

But I have mixed feelings about Mother's Day. It's a great day to show appreciation to mothers for all that they do and how much they love, but what about those who hate their mothers? Or at least, don't really get along with them or aren't that close to them? Is it awkward for them at home on Mother's Day?

And I know people might feel bad for people whose mothers have passed away, but it's not as bad as people whose mothers have left them and their family, right? If your mother died, it would be a tragic and terrible thing. But it's better having mutual love with a parent before they died than a parent who never loved you, I think. And if a parent you hated died... then...idk. Too complicated.

Last year, I remember a friend's Facebook status on Mother's Day. Her mother had divorced her father, and she barely ever got to see her mom at all. (I don't know if her mother made any effort to see her daughter at all...) Her status was something like, "miss you, mom." It made me feel so sad. I didn't know how to face her at all that day...

Anyway. Appreciate your mothers. And to those of you whose mothers don't appreciate you, please don't be sad. There are plenty of people who love you. And of course, God ALWAYS loves you (even if you don't believe in/love Him). You always have someone out there for you. I love you! :)

Why do I feel this way now, of all times?

It's ironic how I had such a good day, but when I came home I suddenly got hit with this feeling of missing my older brother. To be honest I should be scolding myself for not missing him before. Er... don't tell him that. >_>

I haven't missed him at all since he left - that's normal... right? Idk. Anyway, I still feel happy and like I'm glowing from the inside to the outside, but just a little part of me really misses my older bro right now. I can't wait till he comes home in a few weeks. :)

Oh, and this is also very random, but since I was listening to music and shtuff it's not that random for me:

Either my future boyfriend has to be a good singer, or he's going to end up feeling jealous every time he looks at my face while I listen to a good male voice. Like Josh Groban or Jason Mraz, or Zac Efron. I can't control my face very well when it comes to listening to a guy sing when his voice makes me melt on the inside. XD And then when I realize my face is going all fuzzy or unfocused or is slightly smiling in a cheesy way... I try to correct it subtly and that ends up making me chuckle bashfully or something weird, cuz I'm afraid people will have seen my facial expressions before, during, and after the transition of emotional expressions. Haaa....;;

Life is Good

Although this morning I woke up at 6 to take the nation-wide AP US History exam for about 3 hours and 15 minutes... I had a wonderful day. :)

After we finished the exam, a group of friends and I went to Stir Fresh to eat lunch together (including a friend from Westview, even!) and celebrate the end of APUSH stress. I tried out random sauces to add to my bowl and for the first time it actually tasted REALLY delicious (usually when I go to Stir Fresh the bowl's always kinda tasteless to me...)!

And then we debated whether or not to watch Star Trek together, and went to the library next door to check the movie times on the computer. That was funny... a bunch of high school kids snickering and whispering in a library crowding around a computer... haha.

Then Ben invited everyone to his house instead, so we opted for that. It was so much fun!! I played on his piano a little, that was nice. :) I haven't played the piano with deep emotion for a long time, and although I didn't really play any moving piano pieces today, at least I got to PLAY a piano, where others could hear me so that they could feel the way I feel when I hear beautiful music. :) And then I joined everyone out where they were sitting with their legs in the pool, talking and laughing.

And then we ran around in the grass barefoot, doing cartwheels (at least I was lol), throwing a Frisbee around, and playing with a mini soccer ball. We took a bunch of pics that highlighted our happiness, hehe. The green grass and pretty ivy made the picture-taking really pretty and fun. And our crazy expressions.... oh man...

Then, time for the attic where we played a board game, and then back down to the pool where we listened to Josh Groban on speakers - and other songs where we sang along. SO much fun. And Patrick wet his pants. HAHA that sounds funny. I meant, he accidently got pool water splashed on his jeans as he tried to convert his chakra flow down to the bottom of his feet... er....hopefully some of you get that reference. He really did try, though.

All in all a good day. At this point I don't care what I got on that APUSH exam, because I had a wonderful, fun day with a bunch of friends I care about. :)