The weekend is approaching!!!!

Hooray! The weekend is FINALLY coming!!!! I can't wait for Friday after school!

Anyway, I guess I'm just procrastinating because I'm supposed to be doing my homework right now... but I donwanna. So there. >:/

Haha, there's nothing deep, negative, positive, or profound to say today. Just "happy." XD I just feel like writing about nothing at the moment.... Hm Hm.

Meh. The dance is on Saturday. I don't really regret not going... I didn't feel like it'd be that fun this year b/c barely anyone of my close friends were going... and the ones who were were going separately, which left just normal friends. Of course there are close friends in the group that is going, but.. idk. It's too small, I guess. I'm socially awkward, k??? Geez... I gotta work on that.

Thinking about social normalities, what is normal when speaking to someone you know but not very well? Is it ok to just go up and talk to them one day even if all you've done before is smile and say hi before walking away or moving on? For months? Maybe for a year or so? Or is that just weird? How do you gradually get to know someone better? Or does it just have to be an abrupt breakthrough of the wall that divides people and only THEN can you eventually become close friends?

Woah. A paragraph of questions.... sorry. I guess I got a bit carried away with these thoughts...

But I have more...

Like...

Are there people that you just get along instantaneously, like you were MEANT to be friends, or is it possible to befriend anyone you meet, as long as they're reasonable, amiable people, and if you make an effort to become friends with that person? To be honest sometimes I look at students in my classes or in the halls and wonder if that acquaintence can ever be more than an acquantence. If I talked to her everyday and got to know her better, and her me, then would the possibility of being the type of friends who go over each other's houses and have sleepovers be opened? Or would it amount to nothing and we'd remain good "school" friends? I feel like the second option is the most probable... I just feel like some people's personalities and mine are not very compatible... and that it takes very tolerant and accepting people to be my friend. >_<

But that makes me sad, because I WANT that possibility to be open, even if it remains just a possibility. I'd be sad to see that the way I currently see things is the truth.
I suppose the only way to find out is to just try.

Ah well. Back to my homework.

My Thoughts of the Past Week

There've been a number of things that have been bothering me over the course of this week, especially since Wednesday, since that's when school started for second semester, so I guess I'll make a list of things and talk about them topic by topic. Although I may choose to skim over or skip more delicate or personal things that I'm mulling over.... or not. We'll see how I feel when I actually get around to talking about those things.

1) School's reminding me of how it was at the beginning of this year. The difference is, I've learned that school and grades isn't everything, and so I no longer break down crying every other night like I did in August/September.... >_> Still... school is tiring me out. I'm sitting in my room writing or reading or doing SOME type of hw at 1 AM and I can feel my throbbing temples and my dizzy spells of sleepiness, and the massive fatigue that rests in my arms and especially my eyes.... it just wears me out. But w/e. My parents endured worse when they were in school, sadly. So I will march on...

2) Stupid Winter Ball......
Ok, it's past 2:30 and I want to get up at 7. (HAHA, not happening, XD). Maybe I should move it up an hour and wake up at 8.....

I don't like saving drafts to work on later cuz then when I come back to it usually I'm in a different mood. So I'll just post what I have for now.

It's about 1 in the morning and I'm the only one awake in my house. I didn't do any homework (that's due Friday - I had no homework due tomorrow), leaving my load of things to do for Friday for tomorrow. I'm a sleep-deprived, over-stressed girl trying to fight her lack of self-esteem and realize that true joy is with God, not with her achievements in life. It's hard.

But I dunno.... I kind of like it. Right now. It's just me, this music, and God. Early in the morning.

I feel... like my spirit is floating and soaring. It's tranquil, beautiful.

It's nice.